Saturday, March 14, 2009

Sweet Moments

Today, my dear friend, Farrah Isbell asked me "So, how is Crystal doing?". I knew what she meant. She meant....how are YOU, not your job, not your ministry, but YOU. This is one of the reasons I love Farrah. She asks questions, to which the generic answers won't do. I'm always a little perplexed when I have to think harder about that question that the typical "How's it going?". Shouldn't I know better how I'm doing that how my job is doing? Shouldn't I have a better read on my own state than the state of my students? Strangely enough, that's not always the case. Thanks, Farrah for asking how I'm doing!

I spent part of the day today asking myself the same question.

The answer is...mostly the same as I always am-loving the Lord, fighting a cold, arguing with my diet, etc. Nonetheless, there is a stark contrast to last semester. (As a teacher, i still measure my life in semesters, not months or years). IF you know me well, you know that last semester was rough...not just in my job...but in my life. If I were really honest, I'd probably tell you that worked through some depression for most of the fall and part of winter. I'd say that the biggest change since then is in the time I spend with the Lord. There's nothing life a rough patch in life to teach you how little you can do without Him. Of course, as the quantity of time with Him began to increase, so did the quality...and those sweet moments have returned..the moments when I realize He wants to be with me and I want to be with Him. There are few things in life more precious than knowing that the creator of all things would like to meet with you, and that nothing in your day is more important than that meeting.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I know this is weird, and maybe you aren't supposed to, but i wish you could have told us. Your kids. about what you were going through. We all love you very much and want you to be happy always, so when we ask "how are you", don't lie. Tell us the truth, because we want to know, thats why we ask, silly. :)

P.S. Thank you so much for being so strong through this, I know its hard, but your strength is what gave me the courage to pull my self out of bed this morning and yesterday.